Paint Russian Blue
Paint Russian Blue
when you need to.
Despair is okay at the end of your day.
Do what you need to.

Never left full.
You can't count on friends
but you can depend on the end
of something that's beautiful.

Years that float by. Guests who never leave.
Heavy things fly and collide alone at parties.

Birthdays alone.
Candles that melt.
A party of one in your empty home
describes how you felt.

So paint Russian Blue
whenever you need to.
Despair is okay at the end of your day.
Do what you need to.

Years that float by. Guests who never leave.
Heavy things fly and collide alone at parties.

Paint Russian Blue...





Made In Your Image
All of you wishing for the wise
Everthing you own is in milk crates
A spare tire right above my thighs
Dope and caffeine are my poor man's speedball

I sat down 'cause I didn't wanna dance
With a machine that's humiliating.
The individual doesn't stand a chance
When he rides a horse that's called Self Hating.

The Judges shouted at the runner, "Time to begin"
When will experience in loosing teach me how to win.

The real me if I want to let him out
He better get himself a pair of sun glasses
I should have yelled but instead I had to shout
about how "mob" is the old name for the masses

The Judges shouted at the runner, "Time to begin"
When will experience in loosing teach me how to win.


A Man For All Reasons
I'm listening but I'm not hearing
the words you said to me

All of your warnings I'm ignoring
I'm defying you yet living miserably

Do we have to stand as one
while waiting in the dark for your son to come.

The ones that say they know, today, don't know
and the ones that know don't say.

Where does that leave me They're musch to slow
I'm ready to fly away

But how can I ever have any fun
when before one party is over another one's begun.

It's begun.

Do we have to stand as one
while waiting in the dark for your son to come.


Sheriff Lucky
Good evening little mouse.
From my orange and black doll house.
The cold green moon is outside my window.

And there's a frozen mitten.
The chair I sit in and
the dog I let in and
the trouble I get in.

I'll go rake the leaves
and see if she believes
that if you love someone
you've got to let them go, but oh you know,
it's so hard to put your heart on the line
and not want to control.

Then there's the god I believe in.
The body I feel in
and the hand my life's dealing
and this pile of leaves I kneel in.


Girl
In the modern age
I feel love's such a hard sell
I've made so many mistakes still
I think I can do it well
Now the years are falling by
And this king has no queen or throne
I've paid a lot of gold for the lie
That it's compromise or be alone

Girl, look at what I'm doing to me

Am I a project to see if you can change me?
You rub off the parts you don't like
Then you miss who I used to be
But common sense goes out the door
When you smile at me
Is self hate the price of love?
I can't find an in between

Girl, look at what I'm doing to me

You want to tie a knot
While I'm swinging from the tree
And it's a lot to hang
Your happiness on me

Girl, look at what I'm doing to me
Love and misery
But you're so lovely
Is this the way it's supposed to be?


Lay Down
A lover taken for a ride, never known it
Most of you, it just stayed inside
I was not shown it
A part of you must have believed
I never knew I had such need
Now see this thing that you have freed...

Lay down

My friends told me that it was all in my mind
I canÕt believe it
We met each other half way there
And we both could feel it
Too comfortable, was it so scary?
How could you so easily?
When all of you was all in me...

Lay down


Too Cold To Snow
It's too cold to snow and
You're too young to notice
Everything I tried to be
Just wouldn't fit inside of me
A purple sky, it's getting dark
So let's go argue in the park
The frost on your red cheeks
Are amplified by homeless freaks

Would it hurt for just a while
To lie to me and fake a smile?
Despite the chill that's in the air
Can you pretend that you still care?

It's too cold to snow and I'm too old to notice
Everything you're trying to be...
A life already lived by me
My hands are numb, a chilly frost
Reminds me of the things we've lost
The luxury of time
Was not something we had in mind

You said you understood and I wondered if I could
I'd hang on for a while and meet you half way

It's too cold to snow and
You're too young to notice
Everything I tried to be
Just wouldn't fit inside


476 A.D.
Building buildings you tear down once a day
Shopping, copping a feelgood from dismay
Selling fear and discontent every way
There is no choice all buyers must obey

A regiment that gets blown up for some cash
Murdering the people when the markets crash

The golden country that was meant to share
Has been divided up, there's fences everywhere
Fed on fear the people will not share
Rat on your neighbor, we'd better all beware

Too many choices, how can one decide?
Who demanded these bads they have supplied?

If I copy you, I just might fit in
A celebrity lottery, everyone wins
The barbarians are inside the gates!
Should I cash in now or is it too late?

A history book has hit us on the head
We are managed instead of being led
I have a dream that we will see it through
But not before it gets a lot worse for me and you


Around The Bend
You're so sad you can't find the end
Shocked and scared to start all over again
Put it away and let's go today
When you're finished it's just the beginning

Waiting again, like a letter you wrote but had never sent
It's bright and warm and just around the bend

Now that you're flying throughout history
And witness the things we do needlessly
Hurting, loving.... the irony

Waiting again, like a boy in school and it's only 9 am
Could it be it's time for me to mend?

You're so sad you can't find the end
Shocked and scared to start all over again
Put it away and let's go today
When you're finished it's just the beginning

Waiting again, like a letter you wrote but had never sent
It's bright and warm and just around the bend


Matter
Too old to struggle at keeping friends
You're either with me or against me
This ain't the kind of war that ends
I've got a whole life time to wonder
How it might have been

When one left to his own devices fails
I've been burning and learning for years boys
And those girls are tougher than us males
It should matter when you're kind

When it rains I recall the most
Now how can I accept how dry my days are?
I'm living here alone with your ghost
When I realize that you and I
Were made from the same star

Still, one left to his own devices fails
I've been learning and burning for years girls
And I know now that you're tougher than us males
Still, it should matter when you're kind

The Stone 'N' Bunn
The lights are way too bright and the floor is bare
The smell of wet wool sweaters fills the air
And the way that nature pushes and pulls ain't fair
But it's like the jerking in a backward/forward motion
Of an old crippled man who's ashamed
That he can't climb the stairs

So the road to Easy I've heard has potholes
As big as the ones in your blacktop lungs
But the pub is open so smoke up
There's always someone there at the Stone 'N' Bunn

A pint of Cro for the skinny Frog in black
And another round for the girl who approached me
But got wise, changed her mind just in time and stepped back
Send these lime and lagers to the boys upstairs
I know there ripping us off cause they've nowhere to stay
And the governor knows and I heard him say,
"Who bloody cares?"

This pub don't close or kick you out
Until you feel your team has won
Beans and toast are being served by a lonely host
Down at the Stone 'N' Bunn

Alone isn't lonely if you have a phantom living in your home
If you're cold in the winter
It's really warm at the Stone 'N' Bunn

So the road to Easy I've heard has potholes
As as big as the ones in your blacktop lungs
But the pub is open so smoke up
I'm always down there at the Stone 'N' Bunn


Short Haired Girls
Is there ever a date for when?
Some holiday that I can mark on my calender and then
I'll have something that I can look forward to again

All the times we'd thought we'd lost
Someone to trust and to love in this colourless life of ours
Familiar and unknown like a friend from another world
Comes the short haired girls

As I tip-toe around inside the lions den
I'm invisible when I go to bed with them
I get so scared that what I do means nothing
That I fall on purpose to make sure they notice me
Oh, please notice me!
Sometimes I don't want to be the man whose free
In this world, lock me up, give away the key
To the short haired girls

When I sit as a judge at the beauty contest
I'll make sure that what you want people to notice
Gets addressed
And on stage give the batton a twirl
You 're a star I'll always call
The short haired girl


Solomon
When we're young we want to believe him
When we're old we try to deceive him
Close your eyes and he'll kiss you with his fists
Wisdom brings grief and stupidity sends bliss

Solomon, who knows more owns more pain

Revolutions are grand in the beginning
Until the state ends up the only one winning
The heroes become what they've overthrown
Repeating the past is what we've always done

Solomon, who knows more owns more pain

I moved on and I can forget her
But I don't think love is much better than...

Solomon, I'm so glad for who I am


Little
We should know
We chose who won
Alone I go without a gun
Another star falls in the sea
Sugar cubes in cups of tea

Another tale that shows us all how to live
That put out the fires that say,
"What will you do with yourself."

Paper planes and cereal bowls
I'm blowing air on to the coals
Pink bathrobes and giant flies
Appear before the small boys eyes

Another tale that shows us all how to live
That put out the fires that say,
"What will you do with yourself."


Closer
You shouldn't come closer
just stay where you are

I think i'm learning something
but I don't know what it is

You shouldn't come closer
just stay where you are


The Risktaker
Daydreaming the autumn months away
while losing the time that's mine today
trading in my actions for something to say

Spent too much time with my history book
got promoted from a dishwasher to a cook
the more I know the more I begin to lose my way

and sometimes when you don't get enough sleep
you will dream when you're awake

Safety's the same price as certainty
I'll take risks but I need a guarantee
commitment means not looking forward to anything

Is there something above me pulling the strings?
I'm not ready to answer the question it brings
I haven't finished reveling in past done things

and sometimes when you don't get enough sleep
you will dream when you're awake

Time won't stop and it shows no sign of slowing
and the inventory of replacement parts is growing

Have a wish and one day make it your own
this body's tired of roaming, it needs a home
but it won't matter who I wake up with, I will always be alone

and sometimes when you don't get enough sleep
you will dream when you're awake


Sourpuss Express
Keeping it simple is the hardest thing to do
like being individual, just means I'll end up like all of you
who try so hard to be different and yet remain beautiful
but you're naked in public and unoriginal

I'm taking for granted all the things that my life has given to me
my perspective is slanted due to my own choice of reliving history
every single day until I get my fill
but i'm naked in wilderness and unoriginal

What do you do my friends to escape?
What do you do my friends to escape?
What do you do my friends to escape?
What do you do my friends to escape?
What do you do my friends to escape?
What do you do my friends to escape?


Balloon Factory
Sometimes I feel like a car that's been driven by too many drivers
Everybody's thinking but my own coming out my mouth and stabbing me in the guts
Should you wanna be in my life, do what I do and step back and think about it
Self hating to be precise but it keeps me humble, I couldn't live without it

I know that i'm young
I can feel it when the cold air goes in my lungs
A porcupine personality standing alone in a balloon factory

"We knew he was right but we told him he was wrong,"
is what you're gonna say about me when i'm gone
The people that told me to be practical are the same ones responsible for making this world so cruel
They kept on telling me to think and think some more until my head exploded leaving thoughts on the walls and floors
Sometimes I wanted to be somebody so bad I would have done anything anyone had asked

But life ain't the way it is on t.v.
Those people in commercials are constantly lying to me
I want something that's raw and real
and that doesn't give two fucks about how I think or what I feel
I'd rather be publicly criticized then privately lied to, tested and analyzed
You've stolen everything that's free. Taken all my wants and replaced them with needs


Cafe Zaventam
That night was Romeo without a lover
The air was as cold as a stepmother
I hated everyone I wanted to be like

I was glad god had turned off the sun
In the night you don't see the things you've done
And then it's safe to say it doesn't matter who's wrong or right

My phantom never leaves for fear
Of me running away from here
But it's now been thirty years and i'm still alive

Regretting all the times that i'd quit
But it ain't too late to say I still give a shit
I'd just like to like myself before I die

Always putting down everyone else
I know there are better ways for me to like myself
And its high time, high time , high time,
I was more than kind


Free of me
I forgot to remember what it is I came to say
I haven't studied since september
No one would teach me, who'd want to stay

And if you go now there will be no more audience
Could it be that somehow your laughter was my defense
Are you pleased to be free of me

Patience was not a costly virtue because I always had lots of time to spend
Playing three chords for these four walls
While sitting on the end of my bed

And if you go now I'll write my story alone
Could it be that somehow there is glory in being alone
Are you pleased to be free of me


The Happiness Threshold
On and on and on it goes
until we've reached the happiness threshold
Say bye bye now, you'd better say goodbye